Ennergram Personality Test. I'm an 8.

So, I took the Ennergram Personality test, and it's not really a big surprise to me or anyone else, for that matter, that I would be an 8. (The Challenger) It fits with all the other personality tests I've taken either out of curiosity or that were court mandated (yes, they really were). Scorpio, Year of the Ox, ENTJ...now 8. Yep, she's a bold, strong, stubborn woman who takes control, won't back down, but is fiercely loyal.

Here is the link to describe the 8's of the world.  https://www.truity.com/enneagram/personality-type-8-challenger 

Here is what the site had to say about me.  

"Eights are defined by their desire to be powerful and to avoid any vulnerability. They present a confident, assertive, and decisive image to others. Eights can be argumentative and intimidating; it is important to them to stand up for what they believe in and to protect those who are weaker than themselves. 

Eights fear being vulnerable and powerless more than anything, and cope with this fear by always being strong and in control. 

Defining Characteristics of the Enneagram Type 8 

• Independent and self-sufficient 

• Fierce and certain look 

• Determination and stamina 

• Very energetic and busy 

• Fiery passions and power 

• Stubborn and headstrong 

• Serious about control over environment .." 

 
 

Yeah, I get that a lot.  I think they forgot the word BLUNT. I'm fairly blunt. I think I'm direct (blunt) because that way I don't need to take time to explain how I feel, where people stand, and that since I actually don't back down, being direct is a good thing. It means I'm not messing around when I say I don't mess around. I really just don't. I either have control, take control, or allow others who are capable to take control until they are no longer capable, then I am back in control. It's not a bad thing - - don't hiss at me. You'll find yourself on TOP OF THE WORLD if I am the one leading you to that destination. It is my PLEASURE, my goal, my purpose, my desire to help others achieve their goals. By allowing me to help you, you have absolutely both achieved your personal goal, and given me what I need to sustain. How may I serve you? 

 
 Here is a bit more about what the site says about 8's.  

" What are Challengers like? 

Goal-oriented and self-competent, challengers trail blaze boldly through all walks of life and take great pride in their independence and sharp minds. They hold their heads up high and will pick themselves right back up after each stumble—stronger than before. As children, they may have been called ‘bossy’ by peers. They typically take charge during group projects or meetings and find themselves at ease in leadership positions. The opinions of others will have absolutely no effect on their standings upon an issue, as they pride themselves on being fully capable and self-sufficient. 

What are the Challenger’s core values? 

Competence, influence, power and control—Challengers crave respect as opposed to status or being liked by the group. Challengers are set to make an impact, and won’t back down. They pride themselves on their strength, honesty and the truth. Challengers also possess an extremely strong inner sense of justice. Loyalty also plays a major role in Challengers’ value system. They’re devoted to those who have proven themselves over time and will stand by them until the end—through hell and high water. When danger comes and their loved ones are in trouble, the Challenger will confidently stretch their wings to protect them. 

How can I recognize a Type 8? 

Naturally accustomed to leadership roles, the Challenger makes their presence known and carries an aura of confidence and self-assuredness in their speech and walk. They typically believe in the mantra of creating your own luck and work very hard to make things happen, no questions asked. Challengers are ruthlessly independent are unafraid of confrontation, which can get them into major trouble at times. They naturally butt heads with authority, especially when met with the classic, “You must do this, because I told you so.” Respect is earned through reason and competency, and not through age or status. 

What are Challengers like under different levels of health? 

At healthy levels: Challengers can be a champion of ideas for those who are oppressed. They’re strong and confident leaders who can be the backbone and driving force for causes and communities. Their energy and commitment to improve upon society and themselves blossoms into new gardens where Challengers can sow their seeds with care. To close friends and family members, Challengers are generous and intensely loving individuals who freely offer refuge and advice. When they learn to develop their caring side, gratitude and joy emerges from their core selves. With this newfound sense of tenderness, Challengers become aware of others’ needs and will freely drop the ‘tough’ persona. 

At average levels: Challengers are competitive and may view friendships or business relations as a battlefield, always looking for the next challenge to win. They’re assertive and stubborn, but also self-confident and competent. During their down time, they critically evaluate their actions and work towards self-improvement. They avoid showing vulnerability, which can be a roadblock for connection and intimacy. Doing so would demonstrate weakness, which is absolutely unacceptable in their books. As a result, they can be seen as highly ambitious yet intimidating by peers. Their confidence and stamina lifts them to new heights, with each failure serving as a kick for more effort. 

At unhealthy levels: Challengers can become tyrannical and intimidating, scaring others off at first glance. They become addicted to the pursuit of power, and will destroy anything blocking their way with fury. The feelings and emotions of others become insignificant, as they become blindfolded to the softer side of the human psyche.  In the end, they may force themselves into loneliness." 

That bit about forcing ourselves into loneliness - - truth, but I like me, so I'm good. Catch me in reality, and let me help you find a way to be you - - you do you - - I'll be an 8.

 

Masks DO NOT WORK - - Truth

 Up to now, I've basically just stated my opinion to myself, to friends, to people who may or may not specifically ask me what my opinion is on masks, but now I really do have to make a stand publicly and say that the blue (non-surgical) masks that most people are wearing, as well as most (if not all) of the homemade cloth masks simply do not protect anyone (you, me, or the next person) from either COVID-19 or any other virus that may be floating around in the air. You know it, even if you don't want to admit it, you know it. It says so RIGHT ON THE BOX.

Doctors and pharmacists (even the "famed" Dr. Fauci) have stated that the best masks available may work about 4-8% of the time; but they are not capable of being both breathable and protective. For instance, an N95 type ventilator mask can and will protect you from droplets (virus) flying through the air if and ONLY IF they are more than .3mb in size, which they are not. In fact, they are so much smaller and so much more apt to get through, that wearing the masks gives these little virus drops a place to land and stay for a while. You think you're protecting yourself, but all you're doing is putting the ugly, smelly, nasty rag back on your face hours later after you've touched it 1000 times with both hands, laid it down on the counter tops, or maybe even lost it between the seats of your car! They are NOT working and they have never worked. WHY are people so apt to claim they do? It's so frustrating from a humanity point of view to see so many idiots without a single working cell in their brains when it comes to this issue. Oh, these same people will tell you to stop smoking, stop drinking sugared water, stop eating too many saturated fats - - they know those things are bad for you. THE MASKS ARE BAD FOR YOU. (You know they are, start refusing to wear them!)

I am one of those rebels, I suppose. I bring the mask with me (a green bandana I cut in half so it's only 1/2 thick when I tie it around my face), I put it on, pull it up over my nose, enter the building, the store, the whatever, and then I pull the bandana down both from my nose and my mouth. I don't put it up again unless someone says something. No one says anything to me because they KNOW!  The ONE time someone said something I told them I have asthma, which I do, and they said "OK!" and they walked away. Listen, you may have asthma NOW because you're killing yourself by bringing these bacteria(s) into your lungs. STOP THE MADNESS.  Start refusing to comply.  When we all do so they must stop.

The mandate was for 15 days remember? Then 30, then 60, and now because the election is just around the corner, they feel that they need to keep Americans (and the world really) held hostage behind a flimsy piece of cloth to comply with their mandate of breaking us as citizens. They want us downtrodden, they want us begging for stimulus checks. They want us dependent so they can rule us with an iron fist - - STAND YOUR GROUND, say no. You do that by simply pulling the masks down.

Watch.  November 4 the EMERGENCY will go away. The URGENCY and MANDATE will end. Will the world follow us? Probably. It's been the most ridiculous mess and we only have ourselves to blame if we don't fight for what we personally know to be truth.  SURE, there is a virus, and it is killing people, so yes, if you're sick stay home. If you want to wear a mask do so, but don't ask anyone else to do so. Don't put your life and the lives of your children, family, loved ones, friends, community, in danger because of politics. It's just not the purpose we were created for. It's not. You know this. It's time you stand up too.

P&C License Exam -- We Will See If I Pass

 Tomorrow is D-day folks. Will she pass the P&C (Property and Casualty) License exam for becoming an Oklahoma Licensed Producer?  I've been P&C licensed before, but that is NO guarantee that I'll pass the exam again. I should never have let the license lapse, but you say to yourself, "I won't need that in the future, I'm doing something else", then you find yourself studying 15,000+ details about commercial and personal property and liability in order to pass a 150 question exam. (Note: after you do pass the exam you only actually use about 1500 of those details, it's a bit overwhelming.) P&C covers autos, homes, boats, planes, commercial, business, personal, liability, umbrella, loss, cause of loss, forms, and of course special forms.

Here's a sample question: "Which vehicle would most likely have inland marine motor truck cargo insurance? Answers to choose from: (a) ambulance (b) truck owned by a delivery service company (c) motor coach (d) fishing boat.  So, since the key word (you always want to find the key word) is "cargo" the answer could be either a, b, or c right? A fishing boat doesn't ordinarily carry cargo.  Does a body or a person riding in an ambulance quality as "cargo", no, it does not. What about a motor coach? They carry people to and from places - - but as with the ambulance, people are not cargo. By default the answer is (b) a delivery truck. Simple right?  Let's do another one.

"If an employer purchases a Fidelity Bond to protect against potential losses by an employee's dishonest act, each employee would be considered: (a) a fiduciary (b) guarantor (c) principal (d) obligee? "  Since the employer is the one purchasing the bond he/she would be the one paying for the bond, so not the principal.  The employees couldn't be fiduciaries as they don't really have any actual duty or responsibly NOT to steal from the boss, right? They weren't ordered not to, they are just expected not to. They can't be the obligee as they aren't paying for the bond, so the employees must by elimination be the principal(s). Will you (or I) ever really need to know this? Probably not. I may or may not ever actually sell a bond since the company I work for doesn't post bonds, but it's something I have to know for the next 15 hours before taking this test. After which I can forget it again, and hope I don't make the same mistakes I did in the past by letting my P&C license lapse. Silly, silly, silly!

Basically the plan is to get the licenses, work and establish my selling power to the company over the next few months to ensure my worth before proposing that they sponsor me in opening an office in Edinburgh, Scotland. If I can't get them to play ball there are many other companies who may be interested. The good news is, my boss has already stated that he is open to the suggestion he just wants to see how serious I am about it, and what the benefits could be both to him and to the company as a whole. If we open one we could open a few. If we open a few we could open a lot. It's a starting point, a long shot, a pipe dream perhaps, but again if they say no someone else will say yes. He knows this, and he knows I'm willing to take the risks and make it happen.

For now I'm just going to go work out, walk on the elliptical, ride the recumbent, row the rower, stretch, lift, power my way through pain and agony long enough to distract my brain from all the formidable yet needless mass of information now swirling in my skull's gooey tenant. Surely I can muster up a 70% tomorrow -- if not, I take it again until I do pass. I just hate losing. I'm the worst loser out there. If I can't win I usually don't play. Tests are another matter.  You can't get out of what is required. PRAYER helps.

Be Still and KNOW I Am God. (YHWH)

 Going back to the Psalms again as a great biblical reference, turn in your bible (or someone else's bible) to Psalms 46:10 and read with me: ".10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth." (King James version).  OK great, but WHAT does that even mean? How does that verse affect us today?   

When I taught Philosophy, I'd bring it up as a reference text because there are rules about being too religious when you teach. Christians will always find a way around that basic rule of thumb if they are worth anything whatsoever. I would write it out, put the quotes around it, and the reference of course. Under the passage I would add the following:  1. Name all the things you as a human are commanded to do.  2. What does it mean to "be"?  3. What does it mean to "know"? 4. Is God being redundant when He said "I Am" and "God", after all, He did say "I Am" sent Moses. He didn't say "God" sent Moses. I sat back and watched the young mushy brains in my classroom consider, contemplate, collaborate, conceive, and then finally create their (often) opinionated responses. Philosophy is nothing if not opinion, in my opinion. 

Be. In order to be you must first realize that you ARE. If you're not, you can't be, and since you're being asked by God Himself to BE, then you are. This is the first thing you need to come to grips with. God thinks and knows that you are something; He made you. He knows that you ARE. So now that you know you ARE, you can BE. What are you to BE? Be still. That is the first command in the passage. To BE is not a command, it is an awareness. Be still. How do we do that? We do nothing and by doing nothing we have achieved everything there is to achieve in that command. By literally NOT doing, you have done what you were asked to do. Simple? Sure, it is. Let's keep going. 

After you have been still, and you are still then you are commanded to do something else that God already understands you have the capacity to do. You are to KNOW. Knowing takes two things; it takes training and it takes acknowledgment of said training.  One does not simply know anything until and unless one has experienced the thing they are to know or to consider knowing. Therefore, if God Himself is asking you to both be still, not to move, not to do anything, and to KNOW something, He has already addressed it to the point that you would, could, and should be able to do the KNOWING necessary to fulfill the command. Otherwise, if God had asked you to do something you can't do, He has made a terrible error, and we know (through experience) that God does not make mistakes. So, you are to stop yourself, and think with intent about whatever it is He has asked you to KNOW about. In this case, He has asked you to KNOW that HE is God.  

"I Am" is both a title and pronoun with direction of awareness as well. I Am God is the same as saying Me, Myself, and I really - - God is, God was, God will be. God is I Am. and I Am is God. Therefore, God has asked you to both understand that you ARE because He made you, and you are to be still, don't do anything, just KNOW that HE is, and HE will, and HE has. Exodus 14:14 mentions that God will fight the fight for you. Whatever fight it is that you are fighting. Be still. Stop. Know that He is. Know that He will fight that fight. It's the hardest thing to do - - to NOT do. But it is commanded. 

It's been a while now, but I have been living this way for a reason. I don't want to worry so I don't. I also feel in my soul that if I fight the fight without God there is no chance of me winning. Being the type that simply must win, I stop fighting. Does that make sense? No, it doesn't make sense from a worldly point of view, but it certainly makes sense from a surrendered point of view. I know, absolutely KNOW that I will be protected. He will be exalted and I will be upheld. I will be blessed, and I will be given whatever blessing God Himself through His Son Jesus, has determined and predestined to give me. All I have to do is nothing, and trust Him to do it simply because He promised He would. The really cool part is, He not only doesn't make mistakes, He can't lie. My desires will be mine if I delight in God, but Psalms 37:1-5 is another topic for another blog. For now. Be still. Know God.