Lover
Endless embrace!
The night chills—I dream
What could better calm me
Your arms enclosed—love
Pale fixed eyes
Gaze into my ginger pools
Holding fast this last twinkling
Dawn threatens to steal
Whiskered smile
Tickling past my tender skin
Lingered points—brief touch
Dancing elves—each one
Awaken!
No, let me lay with you
Holding on to night
To give in—to lose
- Jude Stringfellow 2000
One of the worst things that can happen to a person when they are trying to lose weight is to hit that stupid plateau where they stop losing, break pattern and routine, and just stagnate at certain weight which you KNOW if not the weight you want to end up weighing! STUPID PLATEAU!! GO AWAY!
I'm in the uphill part of my program at the moment, having lost 22 pounds since August 20th, 8 weeks now. That's not bad, but for the past 10 days I've been stuck at the VERY same weight and that is bad. It's bad for me. It may not be actually bad or really bad, but it's bad for me because I had a goal set and now I'm not making that goal. I'm harder on myself than anyone else could be, so not meeting a goal is one of the things I don't allow myself (or in this case my body) to do. This can't remain, I must find a way.
I called the doctor because I figured she would know what to do. I love her, she's young, bright, pretty, and full of life, but she didn't exactly help me. She told me she was impressed with my weight loss and that I was doing everything I was supposed to be doing. Thank you Dr. B., I get it, I know I am, but it's not working; something is broken here! Being the great doctor she is, she referred me to the patient care coordinator who may have more insight as Melissa G., the PC for the group, is an actual nutritionist and may be able to find SOMETHING to kickstart this body into its proper form. (Sooner is better)
Melissa asked me the standard "What are you doing" type questions. We went over each and every thing I'm doing, not doing, was doing, have done, will think about doing, and so forth. Turns out I'm eating correctly, sleeping correctly, fasting, lifting, exercising, taking the right supplements and I'm even praying, which is something I do anyway, but Melissa suggested it - - and that makes me smile. We decided to try boosting the metabolism again with eating more Omega oils found in nuts, fish, and flaxseed as well as drinking even MORE water - - more than the 80 ounces I'm already drinking. She suggested adding cinnamon to everything too to trigger the metabolism. We also decided that kickboxing and stretching will be added and two of the lift days replaced with said kickboxing and stretching - - just to shake it up. We'll see if that makes a difference. I'll give it another 10 days before I absolutely freak out! I can do anything for 10 days.
I'm not one to cheat myself, so the upcoming holidays means absolutely nothing to me. I won't divert my attention to the fabulous desserts I see, I'll simply eat them in my fantasies and leave them alone in reality. I truly love that I have that ability. LOL (It works with men too. You should see the handsome bearded strong Scotsman in my mind...he's a cutie for sure! Great smile.) OK, so I'll let you know what's going on with the body in about 10 more days. I won't say what I weigh yet, not until I hit my goal, but I will let you know if the cinnamon works and if the switch up on the exercising routine works.
My Choice
I choose what to harness
As I exhale your breath
My passion, my expression
I will lead this dance
Touch me - - I will sing
Hold me in your snare
Never minify my ardor
My gift, my love, I share
Wrapped as one - - in passion
Stripped in endless bliss
Holding to our mission
No one else exists
Sweet my hips swing forward
Whispering your name
Calling for your power
No thrust quite the same
Pinned in motion heaving
Inhale through my soul
Intensely take my offering
Give to me your fire.
Jude Stringfellow 10/18/20
Fire’s Breath
I arch my body toward the stars
To feel your hand in touch
To whisper words you cannot hear
But words transform in love
I reach to hold your firm strong arms
To press you even closer
To hold you fast within my loin
I celebrate my lover
Tonight resounds within my mind
A vision—impressions
Tomorrow’s love, soon foretold
With sweet anticipation
Keep me sheltered in your soul
Your thoughts dear—caress
Strength to carry through the day
I wait for you—your presents
It won’t be long until we love
Until we kiss impassioned
Fire’s breath shines through your eyes
Revealing love—unquestioned
- Jude Stringfellow
