Say Goodnight
There’s something about this feeling
Something untrusting, raw
Thought it would be easy to resist
Again, I failed myself – that's all
Not easy to fall this hard and survive
Suppose I’ve had practice before
What I wish I could do is scream
Not letting anything show
What I wouldn’t give to smile
Simply walk away - waving
Nothing lasts forever, but this
This pain, this hurt, this craving
You’ve taken my heart
You don’t even realize my ruin
Just a fool; standing silent - alone
Knowing you’ll never return
Could I tear loose – break away
Hitch a ride with my own future
A place you won’t find me
A place you’d never venture
Too broken to ask for help
My noumenon exposed
Too worn from years of injury
Self-inflicted; perhaps cursed
What could I do with me anyway
Keep sentiment wrapped up tight
Never sharing love again
Smile, wave, say “good night”
Jude Stringfellow
February 13, 2021
